~ HAVE I FOUND THE REASON?~

I woke up at 10.00 a.m., and played the piano for a short while before having my breakfast and preparing myself for the library trip. Gosh, why must I get such torment, assignments to finish during the CNY holidays... Pure evil, and I was irritated. Later, my mother fetched me to the Library at Taipan, and I was a bit confused at the exact location, but then after asking the receptionist at the ground floor, I went up to the library. I went in, and all I saw was adults reading newspapers. Wow, they sure had a lot of time to be coming there just to read newspapers... The place was very silent, a very good place to study and to do some good research. I surfed around the book shelfs after putting down my files and stationeries. So, I searched for any Mathematics books that had Prime Number topic in it, but the STPM level books didn't have the topic at all, and the PMR books talked about the basics only. Fine, I looked for Physics then, and there was no gyroscope topics as well. Jeez... Later, I checked the encyclopedia, and got myself a bit of the history of Fiber Optics, and that was pretty good info. Went back afterwards, and continued to learn ''Kizuna''. Oh before I forget, I wanna say that I'd finish watching Kanon. The story, I didn't know how to describe it, but its kinda touching. A bit boring at times, but its ok overall.

My sisters planned to go for a walk in Sunway Pyramid, but the plan was cancelled, and they wanted to go to the Night Market beside 3K. I wished to go, but the weather forbid me to do so. The second we stepped out from our house, the rain started to pour, and we were forced to cancel the plan again. Ate dinner, and went back to my hostel, to try the duplicated key, and to pack my things up. As I was in the journey, I thought about my personality, as it was something I couldn't grasp no matter how much I thought of it. So whenever I had nothing to do, I'd like to analyse my personality, and to learn more about myself, who I really was, and how should I improve. This time, I thought about why I strive so hard to achieve victory, to win. Almost all of the time, I thought it was solely my determination, but then today I'd found another answer. Perhaps my past had too much failures, and I had been trying hard to win, to achieve everything that was necessary, so that I wouldn't get anymore failures. Was my subconscious mind behind all these strugglings? I couldn't make sure, but there's a good possibility that this was true. No matter. Muakz can play piano!!