~ AM I GOING TO DIE ? ~

Sorry for not posting yesterday, but I have a good reason for it. I was very ill last night; my body felt pain, I had a headache, my throat hurted whenever I swallow things... I could do nothing except lying down on my bed n eat medicine. I tried to sleep at 11.oo p.m but my eyes just couldn't be closed. I woke up and got myself a cold towel to wipe my hot face and read a bit of the novel before i tried to sleep again. After eating the medicine I felt better already, and I had a bad sleep. Today when I was woke up by the Alarm Clock, I felt sooo tired but the fever had receded for the moment. Yesterday evening I went to listen to the Talk given by our Counsellor. Its contents weren't that interesting but she hada sense of humour. But then, her english wasnt that good. I sat at a place far from everyone, and I looked odd becoz I didn't had a frend to talk to... I saw a few of my future classmates that took Aircraft Maintainence Engineering as well. They had the same vision as me, to help people above and repair aircrafts to make them accident-free. Then, one of them talked to me and we chatted a bit~ not bad, he was quite frendly. I din't bring my pen, and I asked the students helper to lend me one, but she didn't have one either, so she asked a girl behind me whether she could lend her pen to me. She lent, and I saw her name labelled on the pen. After I finished using it, I returned it to her andsaid thanks. After the talk was over, I went down to the membership drive and I was expecting to see a lot of Clubs setting up tables and stalls for enquiries and introducing their Clubs, but surprisingly only 5 of them were there, and others were sleeping zzz. I went up again, and used the internet for a moment until Dinner time when I went down for dinner.

I went to the indian stall this time, but didn't know how to take the food. I took the food first, then only the rice which was wrong ><><. My roommate invited me to tag along to the the resource center to jot down the timetable, and we traded our phone numbers. And the ice was broken alas, we talked all the way to the resource center and at the time we arrived there, there was a lady editting the timetable as well. She asked us to come tomorrow as the timetable will be distributed to us at the time, but after a while, she asked us to follow her to the office and she gave the time table to us right away, haha... And so I went back, and touched Norron for a while, chatted with my buddies, and felt sick afterwards.

Today, I woke up at 8.30 a.m by using the alarm clock. I prepared myself and got out with my roommate to settle things up. I went to change my key, and he went to settle his fees problem. I finished my business first, and ate breakfast before going back to hostel. Finally, the door can be opened by my new key already, yesh. I turned on my laptop and played Norron for a moment, and the WiFi wasn't that laggy today, mayb most people had went home :P . After a while, my roommate came back and packed his stuff. He went out later, to Midvalley to buy some stuff for his hostel life and to visit his frend nearby. Then the horror came...... I touched the back of my head and felt something hard, the size of a groundnut. Its a bit oval in shape, and was around 2cm long, 0.5cm tall, and 1 cm wide. I took a picture of it using my phone and saw that it was the colour of my head skin... a bit whitish and hair still grew on it...Can it be tumour? Can it be cancer? I cant be sure... At the moment i felt that thing on my head, I was a bit stunned, but I remained calm. I tried to persuade myself, saying that I won't be so lucky to hit the jackpot... But it didn't help much. I couldn't describe my feeling just now, its too complicated... Say, if i'm going to die tomorrow, will I have any regrets? Yesh, sure got... Here are a few...

1. Havent find a GF yet...
2. Havent experienced love n sheckx yet...
3. Havent know my SPM results yet....
4. Havent find out the meaning of life yet....
5. Havent find out whether God existed yet....

I SMSed my mom but she didn't reply... I then turned on the laptop to write my blog, to write something incase I'd really hit the jackpot. Guess I will write a confession paper to tell you all who I really am, before I cant do it anymore. Then I SMSed Wei Yao and told him not to tell anyone else. I dont want other frends to worry, but I dont think they will anyway. Coz if its just a normal swelling and will disappear a few days later, then my frends and family will worry for nothing. After thinking thoroughly, I told myself to relax and stay happy since I don't know what it may be, yet. Worry later, now relax and enjoy the moment of silence.... And so I wrote my blog here.