If only I'm that good in controlling myself, i whispered. What can I do now...? With only 3 months left, I'm still fooling around, not even giving myself a try to study. What the heck has happened to me?? Maybe its Pn Santhi. After she was hospitallized for some reason, I had lost my last hope of scoring in SPM. Not only she plays an irreplaceable role in my studies, her appearance gave me strength and the spirit to study. What can I do now? Theres certainly not enough time for me anymore. My good side and evil side are fighting each other right now, and none of them showed mercy, but still no side wins the fight. I'm suffering each and every day... Lets just hope I can focus on my SPM after tonight, after sealing my computer ''officially'' for the decisive three months. With God's permission, I will seal this damned computer for the first time. I hereby swear to the Gods above that I will not switch this damned piece of electronics on until SPM ends.